Somewhere between my last post and today things got jumbled.

I never knew what it was like to have a “real person” grown up job until now. A job where you feel like you’re wasting time peeing because you just have to forward such and such to so and so at 10:51 on the dot or they’ll throw a hissy. In fact, that was going to be the topic of today’s post:
How to Know You’re Entered The “Real World.”

In between those pesky bathroom breaks, scarfing down South Beach meal bars at my desk for lunch, and intrusive office visitors, I had compiled a list of things that are certain to clear any doubt about whether or not you’ve entered the Real World. Today, however, I just don’t feel it’s right to post about such things because in some ways I was reminded of just what I had intended to poke fun of- the real world. life. all that stuff.

My uncle was killed in an accident Tuesday afternoon. I don’t write that for any “I’m so sorrys” “I’ll say a prayer” or anything like that. i just felt the need to write it because, well, Welcome to the Real World Brittny. What a slap in the face kind of shock, you know?

He left behind a wife and a tiny baby inside her womb he’ll never get to meet. It’s so easy to ask “why” when I think about the freakish circumstances that caused the accident or when I think about B, his pregnant wife who will be left to raise their child alone. I know the real life answers. I know God and I know that His ways are not our ways and everything else, but “why” is still easy to ask.

I guess I’m writing this depressing post, one whole week after writing absolutely nothing, just because something like this makes anyone realize what’s important. That to me is knowing God and loving my family and others. Sometimes I forget one. Sometimes two. Sadly often times it’s all of the above! Why is that? I always thought the stupidest saying in the world was, “Sometimes the people you love the most are those you hurt the most,” but I’ve found it has some validity to it. Isn’t it sad that something like a death makes me realize that I should freaking let go of my constant worries and busyness and just live and love? I guess a lot of people are probaby like that… I don’t take time to enjoy the small things enough and that’s such a shame. It’s those little things that add up to so much and i’m blowing through them like a sandstorm in July- and for what? So many things I invest my life in won’t amount to anything in the end, you know?  I guess I’ve just done some “life thinking“ today…

So~
My mom, dad, sister, and Molly flew out last night to be with my family. Yes, they took the pup. I tried to get them to leave her, but they wanted to take her along. Maybe Molly will bring some comfort. I sure hope so.
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Today was a lot better than Wednesday (that being the day my dad showed up to my office in tears to tell me what had happened as I was sleeping the night before). We took the pups to get their kennel cough vaccination and then scheduled them both for
the
big
fix.

I’m sure I’ll talk more about that when I’m feeling more like my normal self. They’ll be going in together next weekend, so we’ll have two little fixed babies by next Friday.

They were precious to me last night as I lay on the bed crying on Will’s lap. I’d been resigned to the fact that we simply had dumb (but super cute) dogs, but I think they sensed my saddness and were the most loving little pals I could have asked for. So- maybe my dogs aren’t as dumb as I initially thought. Again, that should be a post in itself- my dumb but cute dogs). Remind me of all this future posting crap or I’ll forget.

I haven’t had any major revelations about my new job yet. As I’m sure you can tell it is keeping me really busy. I gotta level with you- I like the work a lot more, but my stress level has heightened a little more and has not allowed for any extra cirricular activities- even when I’m freaking taking a lunch I’m typing away. Anyway, I hope I will at the very least make time to come home and post during the week. It seems to be the last thing on my mind anymore. ME! Brittny!! The freaking blog-a-holic! Can you believe I just said that? See, that’s one reason I know I’ve entered the real job world. Anyway, hopefully I’ll be better at posting and responding. I’ve seemed to suck as of late. I feel far away from you guys and it makes me sad.

I feel a lot better for getting my thoughts out on virtual paper tonight. I want to tell you all so much more, but I think you sort of get what I’m trying to say. The tragedy of suddenly losing a loved one is never an easy thing, but thankfully I’m loved by a lot of people that have been willing to give me big hugs.

Thanks for listening today. Let’s all resolve to enjoy our life today and tell our family we love them.

Have a good day. I’m off to lift weights and then come home and hang out with my husband and soon to be fixed pups.
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I love you Mom, Dad, P, Molly.