I’ve mentioned “changes” for about a year, and have never divulged what they were.
It’s annoying, right?
What’s funny, though, is how different the changes were between when I first started talking about them, and what they are today.
I’ve wanted to share this story with you guys for awhile now, but the truth is-
We haven’t reached a good breaking point.
We’re only halfway though.
I wanted to share this story with a clear beginning and end, along with some concrete explanation for how God moved and what’s next.
I don’t have those answers.
But then I realized something.
Even though we still don’t know what’s next, God still moved, and continues to move even though we haven’t reached the conclusion of this story.
So instead of holding out, I decided to share and bring you along this journey.
Today is part one.
About this time last year, we had a fantastic opportunity to start a business.
Will’s brain for business is ridiculous. He would completely be in his element, having helped his dad with his for many years.
We’d thought about it before, but the right opportunity ever presented itself. This particular opportunity was exciting because it involved a partner with a very rare and technical specialization. He admittedly lacked the business know how, and Will lacked the certifications this other guy had.
Both felt the pull to go out on their own, and it seemed to work great. The other guy would run the operations side, while Will would handle the day to day business. A match made in heaven.
Best of all, he is a Christian too and held many of the same beliefs as us.
Before moving forward, Will and I bathed the matter in prayer and sought God in scripture.
We did not want to move forward with such a huge decision without clear confirmation from the Lord.
During my usual Bible study several days later, I found such rich, confirming scriptures in Deuteronomy that gave me such peace about our decision.
The caveat was this- He must absolutely be kept first. No matter what.
With clear peace and confirmation, we agreed and moved forward, expectant and in anticipation for His work in our work.
I knew this decision put us in the center of His will, and that’s exactly where I wanted to be.
I grew more excited with each passing day of business preparation.
I began to think this was God’s way of bringing the prayer I prayed in 2013 to fruition. The prayer when I asked Him for the opportunity to serve Him full time in ministry again.
You see, that was the tug on my heart when I was just 15 years old.
It was very real and very anointed.
Yet, in my “great” young knowledge and desire to rule myself, I ran far away from this calling after Will and I served at our first church.
So far away, in fact, we ended up in a Muslim country with no church family at all!
My will, but part of God’s story.
I’ve shared pieces of that story before, so I won’t dwell there today.
However, it’s that story and God’s persistent faithfulness that brought me to my knees in repentance and back into His will.
That sunny day in my car, I acknowledged that I ran from my calling, while He remained the same. I asked Him to allow me the opportunity once more to carry it out, knowing in my core it’s what He wanted for me all along before I ran.
I saw this blossoming business as an eventual way to make my heart’s desire a reality.
Everything was coming together so effortlessly, and we received multiple confirmations He was in our decisions. Such peace, such closeness with God with each passing step.
Oh friends, things were on the up all around.
Will quit his job in January and everything was in full swing.
I couldn’t wait to see how God was going to use this business as a way to accomplish His will.
Only… I had no idea what He quite had in mind.
I think we’ve reached a good stopping point for Part One today.
I think the spiritual nugget we can take away from this story is: seek Him in your decisions and trust.
If I knew today what I didn’t know then, I would never have trusted God and moved forward with this decision.
However, it’s because I didn’t know, and because of our obedience through this decision I’ve been able to see the realest, most blatant hand of God during this time.
We only have a small piece of the puzzle, but He has the whole box top picture and sees how the pieces weave together.
If you’re in a season of decision-making or uncertainty today, seek the Lord in scripture and prayer. He desires that we seek Him, and will reveal Himself when we seek Him with all our hearts.
If there’s a decision you’re struggling with, I would love to pray for you this week. Feel free to leave a comment in the “share the love” section or send me an email, and I promise to hold you in prayer.
There you have it. A partial explanation of all the “changes” I’ve been talking about.
Check in next Friday for part two. Until then, have a fantastic weekend, and I’ll see you Monday!