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Tuesday Things, 2 Sept 14

For the last two weeks, anytime I’ve been running late and had to blow dry my hair, I’ve simultaneously done my makeup.

Is this a thing?

Am I late to the game?

If it is, it’s probably a good thing I waited to start until I was in my 30s.  I think perhaps my coordination has improved over the years.

Although, I’m probably just telling myself that…

No softball last night.

Will was visibly bummed.

The good news is that next Monday kicks off Monday night football.

The bad news is that next Monday kicks off Monday night football.

Football widowhood commences.

My sister and I have a terrible habit of planning super exciting things and never following through.

We’ve been talking about a sleepover for months and months but have never actually done it. It’s tentatively on the books for Saturday night. I bought the pancake mix and she’s got the ice cream. Fingers crossed.

I ate my weight in vegetables yesterday.
We got everything on the grill, and a few minutes into cooking, the propane went out.

Labor Day

Sooo, we ended up finishing everything in the oven. Half grilled, half baked. I feel there’s a joke somewhere in there?

I was supposed to go to the OU-Tulsa game with Will Saturday, but it’s a 10:00 kickoff, our seats were in full sunlight, and it’s going to be 97.

I don’t need to link to the hundreds of times I’ve mentioned how I pour from my head and.cant.stop.ever.

Thankfully Will’s dad took one for the team and is going in my place.

Everyone’s happy.

Back in March Will and I ordered a love seat, followed by its matching couch soon after.

When the love seat arrived this spring, I swore it looked darker than what we saw in the store.

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I checked online and confirmed there was only one color made in that style. So while I still swore it was darker, I figured the couch would bought had to be the same.

Nope.

The couch came in Sunday and was the original color we saw and wanted in the store.

The new (super duper long) couch

I’m not sure if you can tell in the picture, but the love seat is way darker.

I have no idea what happened, and it’s crazy the place still supposedly only makes one color in the style. Ughhhh, guys.

I realize I sound like a brat, but when you buy new furniture it should be what you want.

So yeah. Kind of a couch problem with no real remedy because there are no exchanges or refunds.

So if you ever come over? Please don’t say anything about the mismatched couches.

Any randomness you care to share?

The One with Labor Day, Sooner Football, & Look Ahead

Happy Labor Day!

Hopefully you’re off today enjoying an extended weekend like I am.

For that reason, today’s post is short and straight to the point.

A few highlights and a look at what’s ahead.

Something terrible happened Friday.

HALP ME

CHOCOLATE PEANUT BUTTER WHOOPIE PIES 😱
Considering I’ve talked about these puppies three times on the blog in the last two weeks, I’m surprised it didn’t happen sooner.

I brought a couple to my mom and Layla Friday afternoon and enjoyed special time with some of my favorite ladies!

At least someone likes my cooking

Saturday kicked off football! We headed to Norman and enjoyed Ted’s for lunch amidst a crowd of fellow fans.

The first game was hot as usual, but thankfully it was an evening game and (kind of) became more bearable.

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So many freshman played throughout the game, and they looked so good! Hopefully good things to come all season!

We left early, which was nice. Instead of getting home at midnight, we beat the rush got home earlier.

Yesterday went just as quickly as Saturday. Gym, church, and lunch, followed by When the Game Stands Tall that afternoon (good movie!).

The couch we bought waaaay back in March was finally delivered to the store this week so they dropped it off last night. Yay!

And now another week begins.

I hoped today would be about relaxation, but sadly there’s lots of work to do! Yard work, washing the car, and a few more boring adult chores.

The fun of being a grown up. smile

I think we are also going to grill out with my parents later today so that’s nice, at least.

Hey, it’s nice to already be one day into the week, though, and get to spend it with my favorite people. 

Here’s a look at what’s coming up this week!

-Tuesday Things
-My current leg work
-Things I’m loving
-A call to prayer (and an mini introduction)

Alright that’s it for now! Happy Monday. I’m off to de-poop the yard.

Such a glamorous life I lead. 

Lipstick on the Pig

I spotted lots of cute animals at the fair this past weekend.

The sheep were so soft and clean, and the horses were shiny and majestic.

And the pigs.

Even the pigs were spiffed up!

Check out this pink porker.

The county fair!

Adorable.

Let’s camp out with the pigs today.

Because honestly?

I camped out with the pigs earlier this week.

I took a tumble through their filth head first.

There’s some pretty hefty changes coming for the B-Love family very soon.

It’s exciting and scary, all at the same time.

I have such a peace about everything. God is so good. When we seek him for answers, he answers.

Yet, as things begin to unfold, I’ve started to see “unfolding” as “unraveling.” I let Satan creep in and cause doubt.

I’ve found myself giving way to angst, worry, and fear.

I frustrate myself because I recognize his tactics, yet sometimes still succumb to the anxiety.

In one of those moments Monday, I snapped at Will and said a handful of stupid things about these changes I soon after regretted.

Ever been there?

There I went, rolling around in the pig pen.

After all these years you’d think I’d be wise enough to guard my mouth and tongue because it keeps my soul from trouble, just as Proverbs says.

Yet there I was, Monday night, rattling off a host of regretful things.

Lord help me!

So, now that you have some background, let’s get back to those pigs.

Proverbs tells us, “As a ring of gold in a swine’s snout, So is a lovely woman who lacks discretion."(‭Proverbs‬ ‭11‬:‭22‬ NKJV)

Can we please just stop for a second and laugh at the imagery in this verse!?

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I love it.

It’s such a clear picture of the point being made. I need things in crayon sometimes, especially hard lessons.

You might be able to shine up a gold ring and wipe down the swine, but at the end of the day old Babe is still a pig and still wants to to wallow in the mud. 

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Same with us.

We might clean up nicely, but if we do not guard our heart and tongue, we can really end up in a pickle.

Thank God for His mercy and grace.

Proverbs has numerous verses about contentious wives. They’re a constant annoying drip of water, and tear their houses down.

I don’t like these contentious wives!

The trouble, friends, is that I was one!

A few years ago, I was that woman. Tearing my house down and being that constant annoying drip of water.

Jesus rescued me from my destructive path, but it takes daily surrender of that gold-nosed pig, especially when the heat rises.

Monday was a good reminder.

The coming weeks and months are going to be a major test on my heart and character.

Lots of opportunities for refining.

So today, let’s talk about ways to develop godly character when the temperature rises instead of being a woman who lacks discretion.

1. Stay in Scripture
The biggest way I’ve overcome sinful habits is to read and memorize scripture.

When I’m in the heat of the moment, and it looks like I may not use discretion, I might not always have my Bible with me.

That’s why having scripture memorized is so very important. I pray the verses and make them personal.

Specifically, when that gold snouted, discretion-less piggy wants to rear her ugly head.

I pray with detailed intention and personalize the verses I’ve memorized.

For example, “Father your word says a lovely woman without discretion is like a stinky pig trying to shine herself up with a gold ring. Keep me true to you. Help me to be a woman of discretion and lovely in your eyes.”

Do it. Hide his word in your heart and you might be shocked about the life giving words that come out of your mouth during times of trouble compared to what we might have said in the past.

So help me God!

Oh girls, we need to be praying our faces off each day. We need God’s grace, mercy, and love to get through every single day.

We are surrounded with frustrating people and situations, and it’s important to have a heart of love and patience.

Sometimes, when I am at the end of our rope and feel like I might just lose it, I literally just have to cry out to God and simply stress my desperate need for his help. “You’re grace, God!”

Take a deep breath, close your eyes for a moment, and ask for the love, patience, and grace that only he can provide. He is faithful and will do it.

TV Timeout

Sometimes?

I just need a break.

In the not so distant past, I would instantly react to things that irritated me without any of the discretion we’re talking about today.

The trouble is that my grouchy emotional response didn’t help resolve anything and actually fueled the fire more.

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I’ve started taking a timeout when I start to feel my blood pressure rise. I recognize my ability to react too quickly and say something I will regret.

I’ve finally learned it’s good to talk through things, but foolish to respond so hastily.

Taking a few minutes to sort it out in my mind and ask for wisdom goes a long way in keeping peace.

I laugh because Will has been used to me shooting from the hip over the years. However, nowadays I’ll just get quiet and contemplative before responding and I think it sort of wigged him out at first. Haha

So there you have it. Not only a real life story of how I could relate to today’s verse, but also some practical applications.

Let’s have lovely hearts, friends. Ones full of goodness. I never want to be that gold nosed pig, and with God’s daily faithfulness, we don’t have to be.

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Happy Friday! I hope you have a wonderful holiday weekend! Ours will be busy, but I’m excited to have a few days off. Plus OU starts the season so we are pumped about that!

See you Monday, and boomer sooner! smile

Tuesday Things, 26 Aug 2014

The fall lineup is around the corner.

I’d like to tell you having little to watch over the summer motivated us to minimize loading up our DVR with shows this fall, but sadly I do not think that’s the case.

I’ve decided to forgo a couple shows, but for the most part, yeah… Fall lineup.

I successfully avoided making the chocolate peanut butter whoopie pies I mentioned last week.

However, since it’s a holiday weekend, and OU kicks off the season, I think there’s a celebratory obligation there, right?

Football. Oh Fantasy Football
Speaking of football, after ten years of marriage, you’d think I would be completely accustomed to football widowhood.

I suppose I am to some degree, yet every year is unique in its own right. The draft is tricky in that sense.

There’s lots of “research” and “concentration” required.

I’m using quotes to be funny, but any hardcore fantasy football player knows it’s actually true.

Since we’re still talking sports...

Softball ended last night. I can’t be sure, but I think a tear streamed down Will’s left eye as we left the field.

Or maybe it was sweat?

Regardless, he’s super bummed it is over, and I’m super thankful there’s no fall league.

My closet needs a major overhaul.

It’s been over a year since I combed through, and it’s long overdue.

I needed to do to it last weekend when Will was gone, but didn’t. Perhaps I’ll get a jump on it this weekend.

I think this is my way of saying I’m ready for fall?

Sorry all you summer lovers. Don’t worry, I’m not pulling our Christmas decor like all the stores seem to be (Seriously marketing people?! It’s AUGUST).

And let’s not kid ourselves, we know how bad I am about Christmas decorating anyway!

Everyday for the last week I’ve packed peanut butter for my afternoon rice cake snack.

Everyday I’ve eaten the rice cakes plain, followed by the peanut butter with a spoon an hour or two later. I’m starting to wonder at what point I’ll just start bringing the jar up here?

Alright, dears, that’s it for today. What’s new with you?

The Batchelorette One & Look Ahead

Hiiiii!

We have a holiday weekend looming.

Forget that it’s only Monday, let’s get excited!

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Okay, I realize it still feels forever away, but indulge me.

How was your weekend?!

Mine was different than most, but still good in its own right.

I was a batchelorette this weekend!

Will made a trip to Pennsylvania and back in one weekend.

20 hours one way.

Just typing that makes me exhausted.

Future disclosure to come fairly soon on why exactly Will was gone, but until then we can agree he had a whirlwind of a weekend!

And I pretty much worried the whole time. Driving that long and far is very taxing on a person. He had a friend with him, so they slept in shifts, but if was still not exactly ideal.

Anyway, with Will gone I was on my own this weekend.

If I didn’t make a game plan, I had a terrible feeling I would wake up Sunday morning in a carb stupor and find myself covered in cereal boxes, magazines, and canned frosting.

So I made a game plan. smile

Will went in early Friday, so I skipped my morning workout to help him get out the door and see him off.

The good news was that even though I skipped my usual workout, I was able to hit the gym Friday night to work back, biceps, and shoulders!

I’m not a fan of working out at night. For me, if I don’t do it in the morning, I probably won’t do that all.

However, with Will gone it gave me something to do and allowed me to “make good” on my usual Friday scheduled workout.

I got home, did some laundry, showered, and ate homemade fried rice.

Then I got to babysit!

Woo hoo.

Layla and I had a great time.

Hanging with my best gal

We played kitchen, did our hair, watched a show… I don’t know how you mamas do it.

I taught her how to hop and then march with high knees and everything in hopes it would tire her out.

Turns out I tired much faster than she. Ha!

Well played, Layla.

After she tuckered me out, I headed home with the pups.

PS- I totally hate when Will is gone, especially at night.

Saturday came early by choice.

I hit the gym and worked legs crazy hard. I’ve been going heavier lately and was pumped to bang out 5 reps of 360 on the leg press for the first time in months.

360lbs. I'm coming for you 400!

I focused on light weights and high reps for so long, and it felt good to change it up again.

As bodybuilder Dr. Jim Stoppani says, “Everything works, nothing works forever.”

I love this quote. Future blog post!

After my workout?

Well, let’s just say nothing starts your morning like a post workout slap in the face with ice cold water.

I did the ice bucket challenge. I wish I could share something witty, but all I can muster is- holy cow that water is cold!

Here’s a link to part of the video. 
Here’s my after, sopping wet.

Ice bucket challenge:After

And yes, I’m wearing the same thing as I did when I babysat Layla haha. It was well into the evening when I babysat and if I’m going to get up early the next day to workout, I sleep in my gym clothes for one less thing to do and one more reason to get up! smile

Anyway, Saturday morning we visited the Canadian County Fair in El Reno, Oklahoma!

Hanging with my best gal

We went early, before it got hot, and saw lots of animals.

The county fair!

The county fair!

I loved seeing them all. Plus seeing how friendly and playful most of them were reminds me why I enjoy animals so much and choose to follow a vegetarian friendly diet.

Layla like most of them, but was afraid of the poultry and ponies! I thought for sure she would like the horses but she was scared. Maybe next year?

The rest of the day was all about food prep and laundry. I even read part of a book, which I rarely do on weekends.

Saturday night I went back to my parent’s for pizza and hanging out.

I am so thankful for my family. I love them so much! I was bored out of my mind Saturday and am so thankful I have them so close and can spend time with them.

With Will gone, I didn’t go to service on Sunday and instead watched online. I don’t know why I’m weird about not physically going since I was on my own, and I guess I should pray about it!

I hit the gym and got a few things done, and by late morning my dear, exhausted husband was home!

He looked like a complete train wreck. From Oklahoma to Pennsylvania and back in two days. Yeah, that will do it to you.

I was so glad to have him home! I missed him so much. He slept most of the day, so we didn’t really hang out, but I was just glad to have him home.

So now we start another week. A short week with a holiday on the horizon. Woo hoo!

Let’s take a look at what’s ahead this week:

-Tuesday Things
-A gym friendly circuit
-August Ipsy Review
-A gold ring in a swine’s snout

Check in tomorrow! 

Thursday Things, 21 August 2014

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Alright sweets, we are nearly weekend bound. Let’s finish strong!

Let’s talk about how this week is most certainly not my best in terms of eating healthy.

Not.at.all.

It involved this 5,000 calorie cupcake.

I'm dead.

Plus Will had two softball games Monday, one at 6:30 and one at 9:30, also known as past my bedtime.

What do you do when you have a two hour gap between games?

You eat French fries and fried pickles.

Real life.

And then I felt like a big heavy greasy bomb was in my stomach and I kind of wanted to slip into carb coma and pass out until morning.

So I did.

It was raining for Will’s second game so I stayed in the truck and fell asleep.

Supportive wife.

I also got to spent some quality time talking to a dear friend this week.

Oh girls, I am so refreshed by our conversation! We are not extremely close, however we have a common bond and love for God that has allowed us to strengthen, encourage, and pray for one another. 

Winning.

I’m kind of pumped about the weekend.

It involves a trip to a nearby fair with a little two year old girl. I’ve never been more excited to sweat my butt off in 100 degree heat and pet smelly blue ribbon goats in my life.

Here she is last year. Where does the time go!?

The fair!

Speaking of time passing, Lucy turned 8 this week and Boz turns 8 this weekend.

I fully acknowledge they’re not real kids, but I seriously can’t believe how quickly our time has gone with these old pups.

In hindsight, I feel a little guilty about getting them during our 45 day vacation home from Kuwait back in 2006 (but there was really no other time unless we waited until we moved home).

What were we thinking!? Staying with my in-laws with unruly puppies biting, tinkling, and flopping about!?

the babies

I also cringe about how we tormented our neighbors with their yapping during the nearly 2 years they lived with us in Kuwait.

Bad neighbors. Bad dog parents.

It’s probably a good thing we didn’t have real kids back then. We were totally clueless.

Soooo I’m 100% positive I’m not preggo, but guys, I’m having some seriously strange and insatiable cravings lately.

Like some weird stuff. Last night for dinner Will had leftovers and I had a giant bowl of broccoli and then proceeded to squeeze tablespoon upon tablespoon of mustard over it.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!?

Don’t google that stuff either or it will pretty much make you worry about everything.

Okay, that’s it for now friends. Check in tomorrow! 

The One with the Cat Rescue & Look Ahead

Okay, not a real cat rescue, but it felt Iike it!

As I’m sure all of you smart and responsible ladies know, you’re supposed to clean under your fridge once a year.

Yeah, let’s just say it’s been forever awhile for the B-Love family.

This weekend, we noticed our freezer wasn’t keeping things as cold as normal.

Before dropping $100 on a service call plus whatever other associated costs, one of the first recommended actions is to clean below your fridge.

Duh.

So at 9:00 Saturday night Will and I embarked on the great cat rescue.

I call it a cat rescue because, girls, there were no dust bunnies under there.

There were full-blown lions!

I am a little crazy about a clean house, so yeah- was kind of freaking out about the hidden animal sanctuary right under my nose.

Sheesh.

We decided not to conquer the lion’s den that night, and instead reserved the fun for yesterday.

Want to know how to push me over the edge?

Use a leaf blower inside the house I spent cleaning on Friday to clean the dust from the back of the fridge.

I was not a happy camper, and Will knew it.

I quickly de-dusted some of the surfaces, but by the time we finished yesterday it was nearly 5 and I was spent.

In fact, most of yesterday was spent doing painfully responsible things. Like getting new tires, putting a new doorbell on the house, ironing, and prepping for the week ahead. Boo!

Oh, and as an aside, what is it about doorbells that make dogs go berserk?

I suppose I didn’t even really give you a weekend recap so much as confessing my lack of under-the-fridge-cleaning and frustration for my husband’s indoor leaf blowing action.

The rest of the weekend was good and fairly uneventful. We did our usual weekend things and also tried to rest a little. I even got to spend some quality time with mom and Layla.

Oh, and on Saturday night Will also proposed. On one knee and everything.

That’s right, girls, it’s official. I’m currently the co-owner of one of Will’s fantasy football leagues.

How did I get so lucky!? wink

So part of Saturday night was also spent doing research and discussing strategy. Exciting things, my friends.

Here I am researching...sort of.

Fantasy footballing

This past weekend was also the second to last weekend before the craziness of football season!

I know I say this all the time, but seriously, how is it already football season again!?

So let’s take a look at what’s coming up this week:

-Food lately
-Evening TV busters
-Thursday Things
-Are we good enough?

Alright my dears, that’s it for now. Here’s to a good Monday full of fresh starts and clean refrigerators. 

How to Fall Away From God (Streams of Consciousness)

When we cleaned the garage last weekend I found lots of interesting things.

Some I wondered why I even kept, some made me laugh (like my Super Nintendo), and still others made me incredibly reminiscent.

The reminiscent stuff is what I want to talk about today.

Do you have some time and some coffee?

Go get some and come back.

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We found lots of “treasures,” but a few stand out:

A giant picture frame someone gave us, full of pictures of us with youth at the church where we served,

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A couple pictures that used to hang in my bedroom before I got married,

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And a journal I wrote in my first few months in Kuwait.

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All are distinctive, yet united under the same feelings evoked when I saw them.

Depending on how long you’ve read my blog, you may not know that Will was a youth minister when I met him.

Will & Brittny-counselors at Super Summer 2003

Here we are serving as camp counselors together way back in 2003!

It was perfect. I surrendered my life to ministry as a youth, and our marriage and ability to help serve alongside Will at our church was a dream come true.

Only, no one ever really told us just how difficult our time there would be.

It didn’t come easy like the places where we were before.

The youth were so very different than we were used to. No more squeaky clean preppy kids with parents who were involved.

Every week Will would drive the church bus to pick up almost every single one of those kids in some of the worst neighborhoods in town.

Only a few had parents that went to church, and only a couple helped out.

The biggest struggle was that the church was wrought in pain from the past. There was much division, and the church had never really recovered.

A few months into Will’s service, the pastor was asked to leave, and we faced so many new challenges.

Talk about a heavy load for two kids in their early 20s.

It was hard, and Will hated it. It wasn’t exactly the dream I envisioned.

Then the chance to go to Kuwait surfaced.

What initially seemed like something so outlandish, became an attractive opportunity.

We prayed about it and it seemed like everything lined up to go, and so we went. (Perhaps this will be a future post?)

If you read the archives from waaaay back in 2005, you’ll see lots of adjustments to the new life.

I didn’t work for my first four months there, which felt like torture at the time but in hindsight was such a huge blessing.

It gave me time alone with God. To seek Him and draw close to Him.

When I look back on my journal, I could still see a lot of immaturity and want to tell myself, “Oh Brittny, if you could only see how God was doing a work!” However, I also saw growth and my desire to really pursue a relationship with Jesus.  I had loved Him all my life.

When I looked at people seemingly very close to God who had fallen away, I could never understand it.

How could you be so close to God, and so deeply pursuing Him, and then all of a sudden completely fall face first and turn away from His goodness?

Well, sadly I can tell you how it happens.

Listen up, and be mindful my friends. It pains me to be able to share these lessons, but I sincerely hope it somehow serves as a lesson to some of you who may be going through something similar.

The truth is, when I would see people who were formerly strong in their faith who had fallen, I was only seeing the end result of much more.

A process.

Do not be deceived friends, the enemy is all around and wants us to stumble. The Bible says he looks for someone to devour.

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It’s very true. The enemy was very patient with me, as I suspect he is with many believers.

It was years of slow erosion. Slowly chipping away in such tiny increments that I barely noticed. He’s crafty that way.

Oh friends, I allowed myself to step out from God’s umbrella of protection and became so vulnerable to deception.

How did it happen?

Let’s dissect.

1.Lack of Community

Moving to a Muslim country made it difficult to openly pursue a relationship with the Church.

Thankfully, someone we knew hosted a Bible study which allowed us the opportunity to meet with other Christians and fellowship and study the Bible.

Unfortunately, soon after our arrival, conflicting schedules prevented the leader from hosting and things dissolved.

Will and I were on our own.

The Bible stresses the importance of relationships with believers.

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I needed that community of like minded people in my life to encourage, to get encouragement, and to have a support group as we collectively pursued God together as a unit.

It was hard doing life on our own, but we managed to adjust.

Of course we did.

If you’re a Christian not attending church, you’re missing out and vulnerable. I would encourage you to find a church that preaches God’s word and get plugged in.

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2.Compromise & Complacency
In addition to lack of community, small compromises here and there primed my heart for falling away.

Seriously- like minuscule things that didn’t seem like a big deal.

However, that small wearing away allowed my heart to become vulnerable to attack. The more “small” sins I determined to be acceptable, the more I was on a slippery slope.

The more satan can get you to dip your toe in sin, the easier it can be to get dragged into the depths of the sea.

Sin is sin in God’s eyes, friends, no matter how we weight it here on earth.

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The Bible says God has “honest scales.”

Sin separates us from God.

If we allow what we believe to be “small” sins in our lives, we are sinning plain and simple.

We are opening our hearts up for more and more compromise. I know because I did it myself!

Before long, compromise was followed with complacency.
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Being totally fine with those “small” sins. In reality though, they were totally hardening my heart more and more.

Want to fall away from God?

Start making compromises and allowing sin in your life under the justification that “it’s not that bad.”

3.Apathy

Inevitably, compromise and complacency give way to apathy.

You just slowly stop caring about the things of God.
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You might say you do, but the heart doesn’t lie.

When we first moved back, we halfheartedly visited churches and kept on the outskirts or things.

Having spent three years without attending made us sort of accustomed to not going.

The first few years home weren’t our best. As I’ve shared so many times, my heart was so different than the one I knew so well as a youth and young adult.

As crazy as it sounds, I didn’t feel like me.

I felt like some other person, so unlike the Brittny I knew my whole life.

Living a sinful life far from God.

I stopped praying and reading the Bible.

Apathy will do that to you.

Apathy is such a dangerous place to be for professing Christians.

In fact, I’d venture to say it is nearly impossible to come back from a place of not caring unless the merciful Lord intervenes.

Thank God He is slow to anger and bountiful in love.
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4.Fear and Doubt

I started to feel Jesus’ gentle pull back to himself a couple years ago, but I believed I had gone too far. That He couldn’t take me back.

After all, I was the “perfect one” all my life. The youth leader, and the one who went on mission trips and truly loved God with every fiber in my being.

How could I go from that, to what I had become?

And how could God forgive me after I had already known his love so well and yet still fell away?

Apathy turns to fear and doubt.

And fear and doubt can often keep people from repentance.

It’s one of satan’s worst lies of all.

I was paralyzed in this fear, and yet slowly and continually, piece by piece, God reassured me of His love.

He reassured me that He could scatter what I had become as far as the east was from the west if I truly came with a broken and repentant spirit.

That he could restore me and bring me to an entirely new level of knowing Him.

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Oh friends, this is but a glimpse into the story.  However, I felt compelled to share it with you because we must be on our guard against the devil’s schemes.

They’re much more insidious than we think.

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That’s what makes them so dangerous and painful. 

If you want to fall away from God, you do the foolish things I did above.

Saturday night, as I tried to go to bed, I thought about the things I discovered in the garage and hot tears began to stream down my face.

The streams turned to quiet sobs, and I did my best not to wake Will.

Sooo, I crept into the bathroom and sat on the toilet seat.

Classy gal.

God and I had been in this place many times before (well, maybe not plonked down on the toilet seat per say, but in this very same situation).

I needed a lot of reassurance from Him along the way.

I found myself at His feet once more apologizing for wasting such a huge portion of my adult life living selfishly. Thanking Him for His mercy, and pouring my heart out to Him.

Telling Him how I want to get to the same level of intimacy we were before, yet in some strange way feeling as though I was more raw and intimate with Him recently than in my entire life.

I ended up reading exactly what I needed at that moment. This post about how God can make beauty from ashes.

In fact, the Bible days that things meant to harm us can even be used for good.

We serve a big God.

Bigger than our failures.

A God big enough to help us pick up the pieces and create a masterpiece that could only be used for His glory.

Perhaps you’re caught in one of these situations?

Maybe you’re on a similar path to falling away that I shared?

Oh friend, turn to Jesus.

I know the trappings of this world and “doing as thou wilt” sure seems great sometimes, but it pales in comparison to the freedom of living a life centered in Jesus.

I can say it because, unfortunately, I’ve lived on both sides.

Commit to Him and His plan, friends.

To wrap things up, I decided to hang a couple of those pictures.

And who knows, maybe I’ll even hang the collage I once deemed “hideous” as a simple reminder of the impact a life devoted to Christ can make.

Thanks for listening, and know I’m here to listen too!

❤️

The One with the Garage Overhaul & Look Ahead

Oh.my.stars.

I’m not going to say I’m glad it’s Monday, however I will say I’m glad this past weekend is behind us.

Hopefully you did something exciting or restful so I can vicariously live through you.

In fact, please tell me what you did so I can vicariously live through you.

Our weekend?

Was spent overhauling our garage.

Plus it was humid and a 137 degrees outside.

Terrific.

Admittedly, the garage needed some serious work.

It was pretty junky.

However, with competing demands to fix up Will’s man cave and overhaul the office (which is still on the horizon), the garage was most certainly an afterthought.

Plus, we honestly had no need to.

Now, however, we have to squeeze three vehicles and a motorcycle into our cluttered space, and that was not going to work!

Sooo Saturday was spent completely taking our garage apart and refashioning it to fit the new situation.

Oh man. Talk about exhausting.

Here’s where we started.

Before

Total junk city.

Please don’t judge.

When we moved back from Kuwait, everything we owned was shipped in footlockers...which were then (mostly) unpacked (or repacked) and placed in our garage.

That meant the footlockers were the first place we started.

We pulled everything out, went through them, washed them, and placed them in our storage shed.

That took forever.

And sheesh those things were heavy. Most were (and still are) filled with lots and lots of hardback books.

The rest were filled with all sorts of random treasures. Haha

We had lots of people that slowly drove by our house. I can’t be sure, but I think they thought we were having a garage sale.

I have no idea why they’d think such a thing…

During

After everything was out, we started garage reassembly.

Did I mention it was a thousand degrees and humid? Check out Will’s shirt in this pic. That was pretty much how we both looked.

During

Glamorous.

My parents were very thoughtful and brought us big Sonic teas and checked in on our progress.

It was good to see them, and it was good to force myself to stop and drink!

Speaking of hydration, oh man. I was a drippy, sweaty mess Saturday and super dehydrated.

I’m a wilty flower not cut out for buggy, dirty, garage work.

We started at 12:45, finished a little after 9:00, sweat buckets, peed once (seriously- only once 😟), and skipped dinner.

But we finished.

Thank God.

And it looks pretty darn good!

After

The whole time I was aching and sweating everywhere all I could think about was pizza.

I told myself it would be my reward for all the hard work.

Pizza, breadsticks, and a brownie. A complete cheat meal trifecta.

However, after we both showered it was after 9:30 and Will was all, “My body is so achy and the heat had zapped my appetite. I couldn’t eat a thing.”

Seriously man!?

For some reason Will not wanting to eat a giant carb infested meal with me took the fun out of the whole experience. Instead I ate two brownies and called it good (but was bummed about the pizza, not gonna lie).

I was a little worried Will was going to be stiff as a board Sunday morning. He kind of overdid it and was hurting pretty bad.

We both hobbled to bed, all old and battered, and were down for the count.

We didn’t set alarms yesterday, and ended up sleeping until 9:30. We opted not to go to church and watched it online instead.

The rest of the day was spent prepping for the week ahead- laundry, cooking, and the like.

Bor-ing.

I did manage to take 15 minutes to see my parents and tan, so that was nice.

Definitely not a glamorous weekend, but one that needed to happen. It feels good to have it done, and I’m thankful it’s over!

Can I totally switch gears for a second and tell you how much my heart is hurting for our brothers and sisters and their children in Iraq right now?

Between all that’s been going on in my life here, I’ve been watching the news frequently for updates. Having lived in a country that neighbored them, I somehow continue to feel connected to that part of the world.

Let’s definitely remember to keep them in our prayers today and the rest of the week.

So now we embark on another week. I have some fun things lined up, and I hope you’ll check in!

Here’s a quick look at what’s ahead:

-Blog talk (and a laundry soap recipe!)
-Working out in the midst of transition
-Thursday Things
-Streams of Consciousness (um, and I haven’t written this one yet but I have a feeling it will be long, so break it into sessions or do what you have to do, but don’t miss out!)

That’s it! My long weekend of garage cleaning. Very exciting. smile

Check in tomorrow and have a good day! 

Thursday Things: 31 July 2014

The car.

They are still waiting on parts, and sadly it won’t be ready until next week. Boo.

And did you know you’re supposed to break your car in?

Like jeans or new shoes.

Seriously. Google it. It’s a thing.

So yeah. Kind of a bummer. I’m ready to be immersed in technology and buttons.

And heated seats!

I realize it’s August, but heated seats!

The peaches?

They’re still killing me.

I had all these plans to make a crisp or grill them but I haven’t even given myself the chance because I’ve been eating them straight from the fridge.

Attacking the bushel

Eh, worth it.

Will is loving softball.

It’s no surprise, but it still makes me laugh. He gets so amped for his games.

Softball

In fact when another team almost had to forfeit, he volunteered to pitch in and act as a sub.

This guy.

It’s church league but you’d think it was the major league. He’s adorable.

I’m rocking the pale
Actually, that’s a lie. I’m never “rocking” the pale look.

However, P and I decided to de-tan this week and start with a fresh tan Sunday.

If you’ve read my blog for awhile you know we have our own airbrush tanner that’s not without it’s issues.

I’ve finally succumbed to being okay with the issues. Not the paleness.

I’ve been listening to a series of sermons on the influence of music on our thoughts and speech.

Such a good series.

You want to talk about some truth in my own life. Sheesh. I can unequivocally say the trash I used to listen to most totally affected the way I spoke as well as a host of other things. Truth.

it was in the 70s here yesterday.

Is this real life? Loving it.

Sooo I think I’m going to try my hand at homemade laundry soap this weekend.

I’m getting all Laura Ingalls Wilder, y’all. It’s out of control.

I’m sure you’ve seen a thousand posts on blogs and Facebook about making it, so I’m undecided whether I’ll share here. We shall see!

Alright, that’s it for now. Anything you care to share?

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